Friday, June 25, 2010

God kept me offline for 10 days, brings sally&me into echo.

it has been more than 10 days since my Internet connection broke. in those days, i itching for surfing, for seamless webbing, but i had to live with God's setting to let me calm down, now that i also saw trifle online, esp. microblog portals domestically. when i was kept offline, i interacted with folks in my hometown village more, and surveyed more places around the village, including the road, school, field, closest neighbor village, Shanggui, whose residential long time dominated the cadre team of the local government. no doubt i shot more photos for villagers, for the history of the land my passed dad, God, owns, had to be reviewed and polished. in the process, i more and more felt the pains of missing my baby son, warrenzh, hope of China, who now under his mom, emakingir's custody. sometimes when i buzzed in, baby replied in weak voice, which let me more burnout, afraid he suffering missing me, his dad. God, Masheng accompanied me&talked more with me. i was brought the view on relation with my Guangdong girl, Sally. so recent days i tried to contact her, who just returned Shanghai for her graduation ceremony from Guangzhou, where she works. so many pleasure in exchange words with her on air or by sms, but our future still in molding in God's shine. i m quite sure she will become my second 4th wife, parallel with my Taiwan fiancee with whom i only met 2 times in Qiqihar, both with baby's companion. that's what God and Masheng assures me from the start back to my first hometown journey 2 years ago, when i first time asked her for marriage.
Ok, its a sultry noon. i prepared blogging, including photos, since early morning. my keyboard turns sticky now. bye, all my beloved. bright belongs to us. i assert here i own the world from my ancestor and beyond.

13/6/2010

niece returned to Wuhan after a night at home.^prepared workspace before breakfast. invited visiting niece&her niece eating together. the little girl gamed since them, while i napped awhile. niece left&returned to Wuhan to join her college.

12/6/2010

God kills a baby girl in Zhudajiu.^read most day while attending d/l. napped awhile at noon when the evil back door neighbors babbled. then niece returned from Wuhan, before her 3rd year summer college vacation, enjoy snack she brought&rabbled. the granddaughter of elder brother returned from her kindergarten, gamed with a evil neighbor kid. i bathed before dinner. haunted outside, first chatted with the only taxi driver in Zhudajiu, then attracted by a vcd of local opera. when i stood on second floor of elder brother's house, a baby girl drown in her grandpa's indoor pool, which is the only case among villagers who has such a spacious yard. lingered some time with the doctor. continued to help niece claim her vanity url for her qq mail, blogµblog. talked to baby son on phone, alermed him&his mom the threat of drown, as well as other sinful murdering plot i sensed these days in Zhudajiu, the polluted land by historical wrong doings among villagers.
let mother not to memorize ancestor with crackers&burning yellow paper.^today its lunar May 1st, lots of families in Zhudajiu held ceremony praying&memorizing their passed relatives as well as ancestors with kneels&crackers&burning yellow paper which regarded as money in the other world for their ancestors. i was woke by crackers everywhere&got annoyed. tried to got music online but again failed, likes the case of online radio i discussed it previously. in breakfast told mother give up traditional commemoration way, she nodded even reluctant. its a cloudy morning.

benzrad's comment on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓 (http://t.qq.com/bentchu) 转播: i agree. common Chinese half-disabled by constrained from gun while dog system like cops armed to teeth. people must be empowered anyway anytime.
连岳 (http://t.qq.com/lianyue) :据《瞭望》新闻周刊：我国枪支管理制度松懈，售买渠道半公开存在，地下交屡禁不止。——我觉得让民众手头有枪，弊大于利，没什么不好的。

11/6/2010

folks wondered me.^posting blog lasted after noon for likely blocking over some of my sites. near dinner let neighbor boy, a demon, played game on my notebook. haunted outside after rich dinner, frequented a cordial wife in the village. played with kids in front space. later revisited the wife whose family dining. lots of evil probings whipped in my mind before i worked in night. baby's mom, emakingir dined out with his colleagues, reluctant to go online, fine tuned family google knols till near 10pm.
post a blog entry.^recent morning got up lately, likely worked too late in night, usually after 10pm before went to bad. prepared&post a blog to include tweets&photos, also a video of raining since breakfast. mother bought some litchi for me&quite sweet&juicy. its a sunny morning.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

A drizzle wrinkles on the surface of one of Zhudajiu's ponds.

a bird rest on a power line support pole.

a sunset over Zhudajiu village.

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Friday, June 11, 2010

rains and clouds, that's all bliss sacred

8/6/2010

a beautiful rain night.^dinner is delicious. adding sidebar widgets to family clogs. the rain turns heavier in night. dirt around challenged me severely first&last quite some time. didn't buzz baby. attending d/l till 10:29pm went to bed.
read&attending d/l since got up.^it rained all night. dreamed of baby son, but can't remember now. patiently waited for download some games from web. buzzed baby's mom, emakingir for several times but unaccessible. today is memorial day of our wedding ceremony back to 2002. missing baby son very much these days. it drizzled all time today, but i felt extraordinary blessed&secure. missing Masheng, girl zhou, girl lü, in my screaming of songs in dad's old house in rain cats&dogs. after lunch, ema talked to me online, God don't refuse what she dreams after or for. as to me, i quite satisfied by my new portable disk&collection of games&warez from the most endeared Internet. God, i never live apart a second with my baby son, God of Universe, U know!! i love him, u, so much!

9/6/2010

decision to return to baby son&aftermath.^last afternoon i felt pains, as well as inspiring from baby when i review family album online. decided to return Qiqihar to see him. God purified me with rains cats&dogs, and weeping cloudy. waited till baby returned from his kindergarten&buzzed in. baby received my call, permit my quit from my hometown Zhudajiu. informed elder sisters about my decision&asking help me buy train tickets on way to county city. rested in night with TV. then baby's mom, emakingir buzzed in, changed my choice by her possible tour with baby to Zhudajiu next month if she was allowed to stay with new grade sixth students in new term as she did now. baby again didn't talk to me in air, but i assured his mom i will be Ok if baby don't missing me now. informed elder sisters the new decision, waiting here till see if baby with his mom can visit the village in summer vacation.
dreamed of baby again.^dreamed of cult sales or MLM, likely again dreamed of baby son in gloom. got up till breakfast ready. sunshine flushed when i went to make water. last afternoon i deleted all unfinished downloads for the return to baby son, this morning i first arranged d/l after workspace ready. its cloudy now, but God knows linkage between baby&me stronger than ever. how great it would be when warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, visit his grandpa's hometown second time with his mom in booming summer?!
tried new yahoo profile's homepage.^supplement missing tweet yesterday for postponed elation of reuniting again with baby son in Qiqihar, for his mom suggested a possible revisiting my passed dad's house in her summer vacation with baby. found yahoo redesigned user profile ui, made customization on it. nicely! also babbled with mother&visiting evil former neighbor wife on young lives' perished China situation. the demon, eldest brother also visited in order to profane. Pray God shows me soon sunshine for sanity.

benzrad's comments on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓对邱松说: a new generation of akin with English just urging to given birth sooner after the collapse of nowadays China authority hates&inferior to western power. English url superior&enjoyed by most Chinese to come. then those url consisted by numbers hotly chased after by Chinese isp today will dumped like rubbish, or paper tiger like nowadays China currency. quite born losers investing sinks.

benzrad朱本主子卓转播:

there is surely disobedient between central Empire&tribe of Korea. || iamlukas(@iamlukas): || 爵士银猴(@i-houzi): +1

连岳 :养了一条狗，人人都说是狼，养大了发现真是狼，为了面子，还得搂着当宠物。——这就是中朝关系。

deadly craving for a real people's representative government heated and on hot.

50 secs ago by Benzrad Zhu

risk life to hurt bureaucracy who damage our life, that's righteous, except the real hidden dog that manipulating the infringement of our peace&quality of lives for decades since the stolen state power turns inner-outward. robbery occurs everyday nowadays in China.

Amplify'd from news.qq.com

广西梧州6名法官执行案件时遭泼硫酸 2人重伤

10/6/2010

God grants my joy of natural.^read while d/l most day. chatted with baby's mom, emakingir online but she in bad mood&soon rebuffed. a bit curious about vacation tour she promised if available. talked more about God to mother&had to clean dirt with aid from God. lately dined while downloading. in night chatted again with baby&his mom who now in right mood, likely after reckons. also adding her vodpod TV site onto honored links on her 163 blogs. God sees its a nice day, even chill&wind let people stay indoor all the cloudy day.
dreamed of once workspace.^dreamed of QRRS, my once long time employer. dreamed of its dorms, where a girl in family name Gao, likely named Gaorongxin 高荣欣, and some other girls trying to date me or other stuff. got up lately just for breakfast. its windy again, but i managed to work in open space in dad's front yard. enjoy Masheng in weak in need for me.!
a happy day with flock of visitors.^read till youngest elder sister&her husband visited for the coming dragon boat festival. mother cooked rich meal&drank&talked about kid brother's fancy new female outside of his wife in county city. soon when i read again neighbor girls returned from labor living in developed cities in eastern China. they chatted online via qq, then demo&help the granddaughter of the evil dark house in front of ours use other products, including mail, microblog, alumni of qq, a Chinese monopoly portal. after dinner the recently frequent girl students visited&tried new games. they fascinated by a 3d game they likely first time experience. invited dined with us, granddaughter of elder brother tried a game she once played with my nephew&greatly enchanted. sorted stuff newly got from web till dark outside. watched TV till 9pm surfed again. didn't contact with baby nor his mom today. it turns sunny shortly when girls fiddle with their qq. its the longest day i worked outside adopting convenience of clouds.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

a raining scene video shot in Zhudajiu, benzrad's hometown where 朱子卓 lingered these months.

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLAYTneLxS0]
http://vimeo.com/12477420 [vimeo=12477420]

raining Zhudajiu, benzrad's hometown from China Democracy on Vimeo.

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

an elder in village.

a young family in Zhudajiu, benzrad's hometown.

raindrops gathered&flew on backyard ground.雨中即景：朱子卓在老家朱大九村。

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Monday, June 07, 2010

sunny days with lots of games.

last night again dreamed of baby son, who sat in the inner circle of stadium watching a school sports game. when i attempted to care baby&asking him to move, his mom again refute my proposal, so i again lost temper and beat her. baby son cried and let me left. then i woke up. the scene in dream let me sorry, for i let baby indecisive, let his interest hurt, let me less know baby's true feelings. its a pale morning, i felt i need more reinforce from God, my passed dad, Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan. God, u know all my road toward my new China Empire of 1109 years' soverein, u know what's i care most. put more tasks on me before the emerging reality turns clearer. bring my second son, one of ur gift for Masheng&me. promote me to new stage with my girls, esp. girl Zhou now, in best time in new marriage. God, let the thirsty drinks water, the burning for losing&revengeful healed. God, i forever live with u, my passed dad&most beloved baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain, warozhu.com.

God, my life here is quite enjoyable, except missing for my baby son, warren zhu. God, let my beloved in peace, lent ur Son more insight.

benzrad's tweets on Jun 2,2010

God, i got my new portable hard disk. thx!^finally got my 3rd portable hard disk with my elder sister's loan, including 2 wrecked in those years, like flying in clear sky! just got all data backup onto it. so clean now! the purchase happened in the county city, with my 2 brother-in-law&a nephew's companion. shot more photos on the way for panorama. now i can drive my notebook more swiftly with less data load on it. without breakfast i launched, delayed some time in the county for elder sister who brought the loan arrived lately. its cloudy in the morning, but turns sunny when i returned home&launched to migrate/backup data onto the new hard disk. now it turned pale again. God saves.

all morning prepared posting blog with recent photos. first time tried panorama software to combine some photos of Zhudajiu village, and the result really daunting/amazing! treated visiting girls with games. when it drizzled i felt at home, and buzzed elder sister about the loan to buy myself a portable hard disk as she promised several days ago. positive answer at once gained. in the night arranged next day's contacting&buying details with elder sister. talked to baby's mom about baby's birthday, but she refuted to go online. restless night for the joy of owning new storage media.
enjoy new portable storage.^migrated&backup data to new portable disk most afternoon, real nice work. mother bough fish. dined in back yard among dirty neighbor wives. haunted outside when mother babbled with a cheap woman. chatted with some folks in front plaza of the village. demons, including my elder brother, and good willed villagers let me wonder in front of fish pond in front Zhudajiu. buzzed baby's mom about remission. felt discrete but mother sat aside me in room attempting rubbling. God, clear my way toward the Holy!

benzrad's tweets on Jun 3,2010

busy with posting recent photos, esp. panoramas i made.^posting recent photos, including panoramas from footage. its sunny in morning, but now turns pale. nice to see task done.
the author has some points, but as to me, visionary or other great merit, is naturally lives in the living mind, lives in God's message. the holder don't hesitate in himself on things or vision ahead.
BTW, i don't think facebook will replace nor wipe out google, but enrich the diversity of coming mobile information world with instant access anytime anywhere, with google, who exactly at the same time an innovator on the task. facebook more and more evolves itself from a close friends circle into an open world publish, like what google a veteran been with.
in a word, the world coming is a freer and more capable multiply dimensions. people live with more support of independent and plenty, esp digitally. God, of the world never seen and ever sees, don't let the world deteriorate but constantly surprising the world witnesses.

read till waist fatigue.^read all afternoon, also attending download. rest some time on long bench in early dusk in front yard with music from cellphone. dinner is rich with pepper&fish in backyard. the neighbor husband tried to chat when we busy eating. haunted outside, taste water from the old well when i met a honest folk carrying water&follow him to his house. babbled about nowadays China and International affairs. felt dirty after left, praying God's save on way to front pond, where i clean my thoughts. teased grandson of elder brother awhile on way home. mother foolishly while selfishly comment anybody talking to me should be obliged, i replied, anyone i talked to honored. she also attempted to persuade me doing chores myself. baby's mom, emakingir, talked online about the clerk woman in office designed detaining baby's kindergarten allowance granted by the company's policy, aiming to let me close my journey here. i decided to let it go.

benzrad's tweets&comment on Jun 4,2010

benzrad朱本主子卓转播:

让他们徒劳的投资这些公器（实乃私器）吧，直到压垮他们仍然无救，那就是我们的曙光初照。

连岳 :京华时报：永州市法院枪击案后，北京市各级法院都已加强了安保力度。部分法院实行了贴身扫描、启动24小时安防监控系统等措施。——公正才是最好的安保措施。

post panorama to panoramio.^read since got up. posted latest tweets to 163&qq. posted recent photos to family panoramio. tried to update&addons songbird to play bible radio, but again failed. maybe i need a solution for online radio. hunted for d/l late afternoon. mother cooked rich meal. haunted front plaza&shot more photos. visited building new house in outer field of Zhudajiu. buzzed baby's mom discussing if she would bring baby son visit Zhudajiu in coming summer vacation&return to Qiqihar whole family before new term, but she refuted. sorted stuff in night, read more after watched awhile TV about Japan's new primer. a neighbor son returned with his wife, who both lives in Xi'an, western China, in dusk.

benzrad's tweet on Jun 5,2010

tried new panorama tool.^worked since got up. tried a new panorama creator but didn't satisfied. village girl students visited&gamed on my notebook. os infected again amid trying new radio softwares. restored os after gaming girls left. now clearer sky waving to me in surfing waves.
post photo, esp. panorama to domestic web album.^dined in backyard. haunted village front yard. chatted with a guy in his front yard, also shot photo for a visiting elder woman. teased some kids in the village open space, till some demon kids too annoying. post recent photos, esp panorama of village's front space to domestic web album.

benzrad's tweet on Jun 6,2010

read, then let village girls gamed on notebook as God grants.^enjoyed reading till the 2 girls visited again. wondered in sunshine in front yard, talking with dad&baby son, God of Universe. met another girl who smartest&missing in morning for she visited her grandma since last afternoon. mother let vendor installed new gas range. its a blessing afternoon.
dined with beer. haunted outside, shot a baby girl&invited to dine with their family by a retired doctor. shown them movie of his granddaughter's performance on their TV. returned when it dark. talked to baby how i glad today with communication with God&him in sunshine.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

a gracious sunset.

village Zhudajiu's kids and cows, which less and less nowadays.

panorama of Zhudajiu's front space.朱大九村口全景图。

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Tuesday, June 01, 2010

cloudy days, in want for the stuffy hard disk.

a cloudy morning, looking forward sunshine. the likely infected os let me anxious, i pray God saves my works online&locally. prepared recent photos, including first time trying&succeeded making 2 panorama for scenes of the village, my hometown, Zhudajiu, since breakfast. first panorama tool likely a virus or trojan, but i managed to make progress with my task with cares. those frequent girl students in village in weekends visited again, for today its International Children's Day, they wear smart and free and in high mood. but some demons among them almost ruin my works by prudently challenged me via messing my daily equipment, ie. camera¬ebook. God, i badly need a new storage for stuff from web. save&secure my works from threats around, esp. the dog system in nowadays China.

28/5/2010

a blessing raining day.^prepared&posted a blog entry to include recent photos, done till after lunch. read. secured family gmail accounts by verifying&adding associated alternative emails. sorted stuff newly from web&backup. lately afternoon listening bible radio&touched by holy message. sister finally buzzed in&told me her arrangement to lent me to buy a portable hard disk. a great relief. haunted outside after dinner, chatted with the state grid worker in the village, and some other villagers, about culture and countryside life. visited elder brother's house&cared his grandson awhile while he is absent. mother&visiting eldest brother again challenged me in my room when i lean on bed watching TV. another sinful woman, my second elder sister also buzzed in&inquired about my purchase. baby said playing pc game with his mom, who let me chat online next morning. God sees how i reinforced in the radio's gospel.

29/5/2010

cloudy morning. treated visiting kids.^2 groups of village kids visited dad's house when i still on bed. got up&treated a kid girl and boy with animation online. read&listening bible radio alone. then some girl students visited, shown them google search for their name. they played pc games later. mother a bit unease, but they played enough before left. i let download&now surfing. sunshine likely will commence at noon. a nice morning.

clouds turned into sunshine afternoon.^mother cooked 糍粑 ciba, very delicious. just got recent photos backup to my flickr account. sang&got sunburn in recent sunshine among clouds. hopefully soon i will get my new portable hard disk. haunted the village front plaza, chatted with the state grid worker for quite some time, till saw the girl students teamed to wander. followed them&let one of them using my camera as she asked to shot photos for her pals&me. visit the fish pond. chatted with baby&his mom longest online, while they busy with pc game. read all night.

30/5/2010

last night felt dirt around before sleep. this morning felt sleepy after got up. activated family box.net accounts' uploading emails&backup. treated visiting village girls with games. dozed again when they gaming.

girl students in village tested me for appealing.^last night felt dirt around before sleep. this morning felt sleepy after got up. activated family box.net accounts' uploading emails&backup. treated visiting village girls with games. dozed again when they gaming, in dad's old house, where is cool while hot sunshine outside. created personal folder for family web store accounts. so glad to see sunshine resumed. dozed some time after noon. chickens woke me up to surf, till those girls, even more, visited. let them listening a song they likes. them gamed on my notebook near 5pm&left. hunted for resource to d/l. when mother cooking, i haunted outside in dusk. after returned home, doubting my age&my girls, as well as my new life in new marriages. buzzed baby's mom, emakingir, about baby's coming lunar birthday.

comments by benzrad on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓对Mickey说:

yes, a Chinese. for English's inspiring, and making difference from Chinese nowadays sometimes quite ugly, i blogged in English.

31/5/2010

sleepy morning.^first time didn't got up midnight to urinate. woke up by urine but mother already calling to breakfast. read&let d/l in front yard when it still in shadow of wall. baby's mom, emakingir, called&chatted online when her office work started. i help her import contacts of box.net's secret upload emails. dozed again in music on bench openly. power down awhile, when i sorted stuff newly got from web. read again after power supply resumed. so nice a day, with sunshine not so stringing.

radio software infected my os, God saves.^read alone most day. mother don't prepared lunch for me for busy with caring grandson of elder brother, who busy with harvest rapeseed. most time in music. when i launched radio software aiming to listen bible radio, pc infected by virus. powered down notebook&haunted outside. some ugly villagers in front plaza talking about bullet&crime. i watched stream. mother holding her grand-grandson talked to me. closer to watch a house with spacious yards and trees and pond in front of the village. mediated aside the fish pond, on the rebellion&new riches among villagers, power of money&sin of imprudence&arrogant upon the Son. cared the grandson-in-law when sky turned dark&mother returned to collect drying clothes against rain. dinned lately delayed by mother. comment on web. chatted with baby&his mom online. baby ate cake&ice porridge. i buy the bill on my online finance.

comments by benzrad on the day.

benzillar: RT Nan Chen (@gokeeper): 高考临近关闭网吧，这是我国领导层智慧的又一次突出体现。shits! should accuse the head dog to court.

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